I am thinking of angelbaby. Her given name is Ani Lucille Tribbett. Who knows - maybe there's a little boy in heaven going "Why did I end up with a girl name?" I don't know - is there even gender in heaven? I guess to keep things simple and concrete, we chose a gender. Female made sense since anatomically all babies are essentially female when they start out in the womb. She would be around a year old right now. I didn't know her, so I guess I can't really say that I miss her personally. But I miss the idea of her and the fact that I didn't get a chance to get to know her. I know that someday I'll get to see this angelbaby. But I really don't know how such things work in heaven. Will she know me and know that I thought about her a lot? Or perhaps she has some window into my life from her place in heaven. Perhaps she'll feel that I don't think of her enough?
I am sad for the sibling that Boo never got a chance to know. Someday he'll know about her, but I would've loved to see him with her.
Happy Birthday Ani. You are loved and never forgotten.
Estimated Due Date - 9/5/2009
I'm so sorry for your loss. I have the same thoughts. Some days are easier than others, but I always think of the two we've lost.
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Jill
Ani- your mom is one of the most beautiful spirits I know. Your dad is a cool cat. And your brother is so adorable, its almost illegal. (But I know you know all this this because you are with them every single day.) Happy Birthday!
ReplyDeleteAh Crystal, my love to you and Ani.
ReplyDeleteHugs Crystal. What a beautiful post.
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